Why am I so scared?

[OrmRenewed]

I'm on citalopram. Have been for 18m. Was doing fine - well in fact. But I had a car accident the other day. Lots of worrying stuff but I am fairly sure it's all OK now. But I can't shake this feeling that something bad is going to happen. I am going to be in big trouble for something. The other driver has called me twice to tell me about her aches and pains and is now trying to claim for injuries. I want her to leave me alone. I want it all to go away. I have had several bit of very good news in the last few days but I still can't feel 'up'. It's as if the accident has tipped me back down into the pit and I can't see the sky anymore.

Something bad is lurking round the corner. I want to get very drunk or curl up under my duvet and not come out.

[luciemule]

Hi Orm - sorry to hear about your accident. How come the other driver is calling you? Surely they shouldn't be doing that - isn't that harrassment or do you know them? To claim for injuris they don't need to contact you at all.
What does Citalopram are you on?
Could you ask the GP for a few therapy sessions to help the anxious feelings you've got? Although I don't know the accident details, even without depression, people can obviously suffer from shock following an accident and you may also feeling the effects of shock as well as the depression. Me and mum were in a fairly minor accident when I was 17 and I still clam up when a car pulls up behind me as I think it's going to hit into the back of the car. That was 15 years ago!

[OrmRenewed]

Because it's a small town and the shop she works in knows where we live. She rang me yesterday to ask how I was and then proceeded to tell me how bad she felt. It's looking as if the ins company accepts it's my fault (which is more than I do) so I have this horrible sense of guilt. I just want it all to go away and let the insurance company sort it out.

20mg of citalopram. I was on it for a year, tried to come off and got really bad again.

I feel bad for her but just want her to leave me alone

[willsurvivethis]

Hi Orm I read about the accident on another thread.

But indeed you need to stop answering her phone calls, there is no need, she's playing a nasty game. Hang up or tell her to speak to her insurer.

I noted you said on the other thread she walked as if she had whiplash - but that doesn't show straight away. Any stiffness only later the same day or in the morning. You're being manipulated.

I know that feeling of impending doom, but it is your brain trying to protect you, not a fact or a reality. Give yourself a few days for things to settle down, as luciemule says it is traumatic so how you feel right now is normal. Have a glass of wine to relax and keep talking about how you feel - that will help give it a place

[GetDownYouWillFall]

Hi Orm, like willsurvive I read your other thread too, and really felt for you.

I drove into someone in a car park last september and although noone was hurt I felt so so stupid and angry with myself and it really set me back, depression-wise.

I had a couple of weeks of not sleeping, and generally felt very low for a while. Having been well for a number of months.

However, I didn't deteriorate like before. I started to think about the accident less as time went on. I still shudder now when I think of it but it's not always there nagging at me like before.

This incident will fade for you over time. I know it's awful right now, but it will get sorted out.

This woman has no right to be ringing you like this and making you feel worse. What's done is done. Neither she nor you can change it. She just needs to let the insurance deal with it now.

Hope you are ok. Try and relax and get some sleep if you can

[OrmRenewed]

Thanks everyone.

I am going to get DH to field her calls. I need to be able to stop thinking about it all the time. It's all going round in my head all the time.

[nickschick]

You had an accident.

Not a terrible accident.

Your emotions have been shook about and because your feeling low all the other feelings from before are coming through too.

look at it realistically,theres nothing you can do to alter whats happened- your medication is helping you deal with what was before the accident-so address the accident,if the woman phones again and by chance you answer it- cut it short,you neednt be rude just say the insurance company is dealing with it now and thanks for her concerns but goodbye.

Dont let this knock you right down.

Are you sleeping ok? maybe see the G.P and he can alter your meds or give you a temporary extra?

Dont carry on dropping,its a bad place.

[OrmRenewed]

Thanks nickschick.

Just got a very angry email at work cos I fucked up. And I fucked up because I am not functioning properly. Now I want to curl up and hide.

I thought I was strong and OK.

[luciemule]

Orm - can you take a couple of days off work and ask to get your meds upped for a short while? Thinks will get on top of you otherwise; especially with this woman stressing you out?

[nickschick]

Orm go to your G.P.

Trust me.

You will be glad you did.

[Nemofish]

Agree with nickschick, Orm.

You had an accident - it's not the end of the world (yes I know the feeling of impending doom makes it feel like it is, but it's not)

It will fade.

Take it easy and try not to get in a flap.

Lock yourself in the loos for a good cry if you need to.

Then make a cuppa.

That woman is a cheeky cow who is trying it on, take no notice.

[OrmRenewed]

THanks nemo.

I went for a run today. First for a while cos I've been ill and have a dodgy foot. I could feel my mood rising as I went - I am bubbling now It does me so much good.