Thats it really.
Had PND (mainly anxiety based) 10 years ago.
Had been on and off (mainly low dose) AD's ever since.
(no history before PND)
In Jan dropped tricycic AD from 20mg (v low dose) to 10mg. Crashed with panic attacks approx 2 weeks later. Tried to reinstate the 20mg (which Id been very well on for over a year). Tried that for 3 weeks but continued going down hill.
I wrote on the anxiety thread about it a few days ago.
started to find it increasingly difficult to manage. I have two DS and a senior job (which i normally love and cope with fine) but everything became impossible.
Crying all the time, constant anxiety/panic attacks,
Saw the doctor last week and she has said to slowly increase back up to to 50mg (at 35mg currently).
Tried to drive to work this morning but just couldnt stop crying. Dr happy to sign me off for as long as i need but just feel like such a failure again.
People at work wouldnt be able to believe it if they could see me today. i am like two different people. Feel so sorry for DH and my family too. It has such an impact on them. Ive just let them all down.
Was cnovinced that because i hadnt actually stopped the medication this time I wouldnt go down so far - but i just dont seem to have any control over it.
Anyway sorry to go on x