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Lifes shit then you die

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junglist1 · 24/02/2010 20:22

There's no such thing as love
You work hard and get nowhere
Nobody appreciates anything
People are fucking cruel and I don't like that many people

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GetDownYouWillFall · 24/02/2010 20:26

There is such a thing as love.

I know this to be true.

There is a way through whatever you are going through right now.

At one time I thought like you. But now I don't and I love life.

Please tell me a bit more if you feel it would help

Hassled · 24/02/2010 20:29

What GetDown said. You don't need to be feeling like this - are you already getting any sort of help?

Your OP isn't true - most people are good, and I'm sure somewhere you know that love does exist.

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junglist1 · 24/02/2010 20:44

Love might exist for others. I don't want it though. I've had it up to here with everything. All I want to do is sit and stuff my face with junk. Going to do that now. Do you think I can manage 20 fish fingers and 6 bags of crisps

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Flightattendant · 24/02/2010 20:48

I'm not sure what to say. My best friend is 34 and dying of cancer. That would be an understandable reason to say these sort of things, if you genuinely had no hope.

We are all in the sameboat Junglist.
it helps me to think that way when I start feeling sorry for myself, so I hope it helps you. All we can do is try, and yes, then we die.

Hassled · 24/02/2010 20:48

I think you should ring The Samaritans.

Megletwantsittobesummer · 24/02/2010 20:54

junglist . You are usually so 'gung-ho' and positive when you post.

Eat some of the fishfingers (no one ever got anywhere on an empty stomach). Call the samaritans as they are lovely and talking it out before bedtime might help.

Chalk today up as being extra shit and take it hour by hour tomorrow.

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junglist1 · 24/02/2010 21:03

I think I'm long overdue a meltdown.
I won't be able to talk on the phone, I don't really ask for help and there's things they won't be able to help with IYSWIM.
Can't I have all the fishfingers

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baskingseals · 24/02/2010 21:05

i think really all anyone can do is appreciate the moment.

and try to accept yourself for who you are

i honestly think that's about it. sometimes the grinding pointlessness of it all gets to you though. try to be kind to yourself. remember you are a child of the universe - you have as much right to be here as the stars and the trees.

everything is probably more okay than you think it is.

sorry if this was a bit hippyish.

GypsyMoth · 24/02/2010 21:07

junglist...you take care of yourself!

how many have you cooked??....what are they? 80 cals each im guessing

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junglist1 · 24/02/2010 21:09

20 in the oven. Might give the cat half of one!

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GypsyMoth · 24/02/2010 21:11

i want a fish finger sandwich now!!

Hassled · 24/02/2010 21:12

I would kill for a fishfinger sandwich now - white bread, tartare sauce on one side, ketchup on the other, bloody marvellous.

I hope tomorrow's better.

cissycharlton · 24/02/2010 21:17

Remember this. It's been a hell of a hard winter. Nobody feels great now. Speak to people on the phone, in the street, everybody is fed up.

Just focus on spring and summer. Sunshine, walks on the beach, beer gardens , new people, opportunities. It's only a few weeks away.

Take care

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junglist1 · 24/02/2010 21:19

Oh sorry! They are starting to look nice and brown mmm.
Have stopped crying now, taken some Anadin for stupid crying headache.
I'll feel silly 2moro now (I know this is Mumsnet and no text spk allowed but what the heck just 4 2nite lol)

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GetDownYouWillFall · 24/02/2010 21:20

junglist, what's happened to tip you over the edge?

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junglist1 · 24/02/2010 21:22

I'm always on the edge in some ways but it's normally aggression not sadness.

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GetDownYouWillFall · 24/02/2010 21:23

Are you on any ADs / seeing mental health team?

GypsyMoth · 24/02/2010 21:24

why are you down? its been a tough half term...you're on your own too arent you??

(i remember you from the walking up muswell hill thread with the bags of shopping)

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junglist1 · 24/02/2010 21:26

Oh that thread! Yep am on my own but better for it. I'm not on meds haven't asked for any help. I like my aggression not ready to give it up yet. My boys dad was abusive

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TrinityIsFuckingTrying · 24/02/2010 21:30

There is love
I know there is
I've had it

GypsyMoth · 24/02/2010 21:30

aggression .....my ex was abusive,but with me its anger,which is short lived,but i'm bloody angry with myself (in hindsight) for staying with him as long as i did....my anger is aimed at myself!

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junglist1 · 24/02/2010 21:36

I know Trinity
I'm too vain to be angry with myself. Ok not vain but defensive.

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junglist1 · 24/02/2010 21:38

I need some sleep. Will come on and laugh at myself 2moro!!
Managed 18 by the way the cat had 2. Beat that!

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Megletwantsittobesummer · 24/02/2010 21:46

you are not going to laugh at yourself tomorrow. Be nice to yourself .

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junglist1 · 25/02/2010 08:04

Not laughing yet. Don't think I'll make it into uni today. Feeling tormented still.

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