Thought I'd come over here rather than keep talking in aibu, Feels a bit safer over here!
Just a big thanks to everyone really.
DH has had to go back to work today so its just me and the baby. My other two children have gone to stay with my parents for the week. Its very unusual for my parents to have them as they live a few hours away. They have a cottage on a farm in the middle of cumbria so the kids are having a fab time.
The meds must be working as I'm definately feeling a lot calmer, could still go either way though I guess so I'm just taking it one day at a time and today I'm doing Ok.
Still can't bring myself to leave the house and for some reason I'm feel so uncomfortable with the curtains open, like everybody is looking in, so I haven't opened them in days!
On a positive note I am showered and dressed. DD is happy, feeding well, and just generally a little ball of happiness at the moment. She is a pleasure to have around. Maks me feel like I am at least getting somethings right.
Can't organise my head enough to get any housework done but DH has been taking care of most of it anyway.