SO, i have had the down, then the up, now am back on the peak of a big down ....come join me and say "wheeeeeee"

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Tired of living enormously deep lows followed by huge highs with no normal in between. I can't be the only one can i?

The highs aren't even happy highs, i just feel a bit "bonkers"

hi MoM - do you think you may be bi-polar?

i don't even know what that is.

I found it on NHS Direct. It certainly sounds a bit like me but i am not manic - i am not likely to suddenly do anything reckless, it's more a feeling of being giddy. Or maybe its just normal after being so low.....i dunno.

SUpposed to be in Citalopram fr depression but hate having to go back every month and explain myself to GP

So you are not taking the citalopram?

You don't necessarily have to be elated or reckless to be in a manic phase of bi-polar it affects everyone different.

I am on lithium, I never really had "highs" - more extreme agitation, pacing behaviour that kind of thing. And then of course the devastating, crashing lows.

I was wondering whether you were bi-polar from your description. Not all bi-polar people go on mad spending sprees or have serial one night stands. Maybe take hte question 'am i bi-polar to your GP and let them ask you some questions about how you are or even better refer you on to someone with more expertise.

At the end of a depressive episode you would ''''normally''' a relief, glad to feel a bit more normal again, not a huge 'high'

but i don't want to go back to my GP ..... is there a more natural way of levelling myself out?

Are you taking ADs at all at the moment? I don't know about bipolar but I do know that with my ordinary depression that having periods of not taking the ADs has led to me feeling I am getting better, stopping taking the ADs and then getting worse and going back on them again etc.

MoM what is the problem going to the GP? I would say this is a definite doctors job - sorry

No i am not on anything at the mo.

This could take a while to explain so bear with me...I was originally ordered to my GP b a friend, the GP at the time was a locum who was really really lovely, i was able to tell her exactly how i felt. She gave me lots of things to think about and when i next went back and saw her she diagnosed Anorexia and Depression, prescribed Citalopram and gave me the number of who to ring to go on waiting list for counselling. The next few times i went it was her and i was so comfortable, when the surgery got a new Dr this locum lady left and i wasn't allowed to change the DR i saw so was stuck with a DR who actually shouted at me the fist time he saw me and who i feel totally judges me and the choices i make.e has referred me for CBT against my wishes and i am apparently on a waiting list for ED counselling place which i didn't want.

They have a continuity of care thing at my surgery now which apparently means that i can't change who i see.
CItalopram didn't work except to make me feel very ill.

s it a Drs job? What if the giddy is just normal and its just depression whichg has temporarily lifted?
I am not a danger to anyone

you can see a different doctor. speak to teh practice manager

if it is not addressed, speak to the PCT, you might be able to changed surgeries

i am afraid that wil complicated issues such as anorexia and depression, it is doubtful you can come through this without medical help,, support and medication

MoM if you were happy about it you would not have posted - look at the title to gave your thread

you are ENTITLED to a different GP - all you have to do is tell the practice manager you wish to change, and you are not obliged to give a reason either

These are not the correct replies you know...You are supposed to say here is a link that will fix you

I don't see my named GP (ie the one who is "officially" my doctor) for various reasons, DR Evil is not my named GP and there are none i would want to see anyway.

The citalopram may well have made you feel v.ill - it did me. But there are others you can try. The one I'm on now doesn't give me any side effects.

I guess it depends if you really see this as a "problem"? If you can get on with your life without it affecting you or others too badly then don't bother.

However, I suspect this is actually a problem, if not to you, then to the people around you.

Can you change your GP MOM - move to a totally different practice?

Would that not mean starting all over again cornsilk? Plus, i don't want to cause a ruckus for the DCs there, seeing as how i already argued with them about DS2 needing help.

I don't want to explain myself, its hard and it hurts and i feel stupid. No its normal, but it is for me, i have been like this for many many years and somehow muddled thru.

I don't think it effects people around me too badly. I get a bit stroppy every now and then and ca be quiet. I am not really unpredictable so the DCs know where they stand.

I don't know MOM. (not much use emoticon)

Thanks for taking the time to post everyone.