Hello!
This is going to be a long long post I imagine, but its one I've been thinking about writing for a while.
Some background...I was abused (physical, emotional and neglect) by my ex-step-father from the age of 3yrs to 18 when my Mum left him and I left home. From age 14/15 I had depression, eating disorder problems and panic attacks most of which slowly got better as I became independant, got married and had the DDs. Recently I have been getting more and more odd about food (not being able to eat if anyone has been cross while I've been cooking is one example), feeling very depressed and lethargic and yesterday I had my first flashback.
I'm just not sure what to do about it all...in the past when I've spoken to Samaritans or similar they have just told me that my hippy parenting choices are the problem (very AP, tandem nursing, vegan, co-sleeping, home educating etc) and I am worried that anyone I see will just see my alternative choices as the problem...and I am concerned with the Badman report that having anything on record will count against me if those reccomendations come into force...
I don't really know what I'm asking to be honest...