I know ive already posted in this section,and the support has been lovely.I just feel i cant take anymore.I have had so many awful things happen in my life(not just recent events)and have always coped,i used to be extremely outgoing and could always make people laugh,thats how i got through everything.I guess ive always been hiding or running ,be it humour,partying,men ,shopping, money,booze-always seeking the next high to make myself feel better.Now after losing everything i am at total breaking point.I dont sleep at all and if i do the shock of waking up to the situation im in makes me feel like ending it all!Ive spent my life believing that if i was good and kind to other people that would come back to me somehow,but it simply isnt true;ive been used and hurt so many times that im left totally cinical;i feel worthless,unconfident,ugly and a terrible parent-ive made so many mistakes.From being a resilient,outgoing human being ,ive dissolved into a complete wreck who doesnt get out of bed ,can barely function and who is so full of terror i feel imight die.I know this sounds so self pitying and probably is but i would so like to hear from anyone who could help or found themselves in a similar situation.please please help.