i am new to this site so please bare with me. i have a 8yrs old fantastic dd who helps me sometimes get thru the rough patches. my dh has trouble understandin bpd but tries his hardest to help me. my friends on the other hand is a different story. at the moment i going thru a tough time with this sucidal feelings (which i have acted on many times b4) and sh all the time. a few of my friends are very understanding and give me the space i need. this weekend i have found out one of my long term friends has totally stabbed me in the back and i dont know how to deal with it. i see my physcologist on mon and am trying to hang on till then. this person has lied badly to one of her new friends about me. i find this upsetting cus we have been friends since we met inthe church 4years ago. she swapped churches 6mths ago and found a new family to cling onto. it might sound daft, and i know with bdp i can take things out of hand but i have done so much for her it hurts. i really finding it hard to get thru the weekend without doing any damage to myself. thurs a friedn had to sit all night long with me as i am not sleeping wi=hich makes the feelings more intese. what do i do tellher i know tis secret (which i found out by doing something wrong) or ignore it. cried all weekend about it. or do i hang on till mon and discuss my optons
sorry to go on