OH - it appears i have "sunk" without realising

[MerlinsBeard]

I could feel the familiar "teetering on the edge"-ness and thought i could pull back. It's always harder at xmas/new year.

Apparently not. but the wierd thing is, that i feel like "me" here

I know what you mean. I felt like that before xmas and then holidays etc cheered me up. Now various things have pushed me back and I've just sat here and cried for 5 minutes and only stopped cos DS climbed up and gave me a cuddle.

I would love to be able to offer you advice but I think I'm just lucky that things tend to even out on their own eventually (even if I piss people off with my moods in the meantime).

A cuddle from my 2yo helped. Shall I send him over to you?

I am 'at home' too; what a nice way to put it.In my present mood I believe these feelings are all I deserve. Look after yourself mumofmonsters and make sure you see your GP x

I don't get cheered by this time of year. Its too much of a struggle!
Glad its not just me though. Thank you for posts.

NOt going back to GP - long story but i didn't wnt to have to explain why i still felt bad every month.In a way its easier just to struggle.