What is happening to me?

[victoriascrumptious]

I seem to have had an overly sensitive response to violence for the past 4 years. It's getting embarressing now as I just had a rant at DH after finding him watching CSI where some doctor was torturing people. I called him sick and twisted for watching it and now I cant stop crying.

Every scrap of violent imagary I see seems to get welded into my brain and I replay it over and over. I have violent images playing through my brain every night and I cant seem to stop it. Sometimes I deliberately avoid going into the living room if I know DH is watching the News in case I hear about someone getting hurt or killed. Whenever I hear stories like that I feel exactly how I imagine the victims might feel but x1000 compared to how I used to be. I never used to dwell on things like this

Can you think of any trigger at all? It could be violence against you, against someone you know, something you witnessed, or something in the news that particulary grabbed you?

You indicate a specific time of 4 years ago - can you ask your dp if he can remember anything? Or a good friend?

No violence happened to me. NOthing really happened apart from starting a stressful job.

are you feeling like a victim in your job because all the new info is hard to take on board or is there alot of pressure on you

Is it worse since you had children? I became far more affected by "remote" violence/sadness etc when I became a mother - consciously or not, I was running a whole "what of it were my DC/my family" scenario through my head. It has calmed down as they've got older.

yes Alypaly what you say is an accurate description of my job.

Hassled:- it started about 2yrs before I had children but since having dd i've gone into overdrive