If you are reading this on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day

[madmouse]

...because you feel really cr*p and wish Christmas was over...

Remember that you are not alone. And you don't have to enjoy it. But you WILL get through it.

Take care and have a merry Christmas if you can x

Whats up Madmouse?

Pretty much sums me up sjhame that it affects my kids though

Thanks madmouse.

I will enjoy it - more than I did last year anyway!

It was the combined support of MN that got me ready today, and everything will be OK.

I'm ok Shiny - just pensive - been a hell of a year - discovering I was severely abused as a child but had supressed it until I had my son, ptsd, treatment, the amazing support of friends but still wanting to just walk away and die sometimes. Not knowing it was possible to feel so awful. seeing my whole perspective on life and my past changed...

And now starting to re-emerge on the other side. For me this Christmas is sad but hopeful. But I've seen enough on this thread to know it is sheer hell for some. So it is just a message of support.

And now a long ramble because I am up pottering and cleaning waiting for dh to come back from taking the midnight communion service in a rural parish somewhere.

Tomorrow I will see the friends who have pulled me through this - and still do- and give them a very big hug xx

Magnolia I am sure you do a great job for your kids - and that's all you can do. Hugs.

It's been a shitty year all round for us too.
Had some bad news on Tuesday, meds are helping though.

Please keep smiling.

If it weren't for the meds and my dad being here, itd be a really shitty time as last year, and the year before that.

Just relax and have a lovely time and please smile. Might make you feel a wee bit better.

Hello,

Christmas has a way of making a lot of us think too deeply and dwell on the fantasies, you know, the fantasy that everyone else is having a great time, not!

Purple one, I have been thinking of you but did not know how to find you on here. I am glad to here your dad was with you for Christmas. Lots of love to everyone! hugs

It's not Christmas Eve or Christmas Day but I just can't stop crying. No real traumas to report just years & years of depression. DH took ds out for the day to give me some free time, now they are home & I'm too low to be involved. Dreading New Year & upcoming birthday too.Feeling very alone.

You're not alone hun - and it doesn't matter it is not Christmas day. Must be hard to feel you can't get involved. Have had times of just watching my little one play as if there was a glass wall between us - not pleasant and that's an understatement. Hugs x

thank you for hug. x