Christmas Eve and I'm Crashing! Help!

[weegiemum]

I have long term depression, which was doing OK until recently when my meds were changed. Sadly the changeover went poorly and I ended up back on antipsychotics as well for a couple of weeks, which I have phased out over the last month.

I didn't sleep at all last night, panicking about Christmas being OK. Have had to take the antipsychotics as well yesterday and today as I was having intrusive thoughts, negative thoughts, desire to harm myself.

So I'm drugged up, tired, sleepy, feel like I am moving through sand. I still have to wrap all the kids pressies (was supposed to do it last night, but they kept getting up and I was struggling), prepare everything for tomorrow's lunch (apart from Soup and Turkey which I have done), put all the laundry away, clear out the dining room so we can eat in there tomorrow, and keep on entertaining 3 children (9, 7, 6) who are going mental!

I just want to go to bed and wake up on 2nd january.

Encourage me and be nice to me please!!!!

DH home. Tea made for kids.

Soup finished.

Presents for stockings all sorted into bags - not wrapped but ready to go.

Me - knackered. Considering going to Midnight Mass as I think I need the peace and liturgy of it, but not sure as I will be up very early.

One of my best friends is arriving for Christmas in about an hour - a real treat as she is one of those fantastic houseguests who mucks in, makes tea, pours wine, loves the children almost as much as we do, and is even staying in our neighbours house so I didn't have to get anything ready.

So I will be OK. Haven't prepped the veggies - heck! I can do that in the morning!

Well done, be very proud of yourself, you deserve it. I hope your dh pampers you for the next days.

I am proud of myself. My dh is a star, and will look after me.

He came in and was so chuffed with the tidying we had done, had bought me a bottle of Baileys and is watching Shrek with the kids now. I love him to bits!

you could all sit in the dining room or lounge later and prepare veggies together, turn it into a new tradition?

Kids in bed.

Dh also in bed after very long hard day at work.

Friend here loves wrapping so we are going to listen to carols and wrap pressies. With Baileys.

Thankyou so much for keeping me going today cos I have made it and now we can enjoy tomorrow!

Just wanted to let you know we had a fabulous day. Kids didn't wake up till 6.20! The excitement at the Wii was unbelievable.

They were SO thankful for their pressies. Lovely friend was a huge help. Church was great. Lunch? I fell asleep on the sofa when we got in from Church so dh and friend did lunch!

Played Harry Potter Cluedo and Wii games. Other (young with loads of energy) friends came round and entertained kids. Watched Doctor Who!

Was in bed by 9.30 but now can't sleep!!

But it was a great, great day!!

Thanks for getting me there!

weegiemum...looks like you are trying to be a perfectionist at everything. Cut yourself some slack and get yourself better. Try and stop doing to much as you will just crumble witht the effort. ( been there, got the tshirt)