woo hoo!
been anorexic for more years than i care to remember and use my ED as a crutch when I am feeling low. am very prone to bouts of depression. I get depressed, i lose weight v quickly, i feel useless for not being able to react normally to stressful conditions. lose more weight. then the physical addiction to my condition kicks in, i start getting a buzz from not eating. my view of myself becomes warped and ugly, i become more depressed, start taking AD's, pick up, stop taking them, put on weight, hate the way i look, become depressed...
this has been happening since i was 9. everytime something shit happens my weight plummets. PND kicked it off again, then the mc's, then the infertility... have been on the verge of being admitted several times and had several big falls!
however, i managed the last mc without falling again. been off ADs for 9m, and have managed to maintain a size 8 for about 6m.
recieved letter from my EDT saying that he feels that i can be discharged (but if things get bad again i can be fast-tracked to the service once more)
Im so pleased, maybe Im stronger than i thought after all. there is life after mental illness