I have suffered from depression in the past and have tried so hard to beat it. Been on medication and had councilling.
However this week i seem to be in self-destruct mode. I have a brilliant job, not long been promoted a gerogeous daughter and i'm about to get married next month to a wonderful man.
But this week i just feel drained and miserable, am feeling ill (although not neccessairly ill enough to be off work) I've taken time off work sick, really letting them down, i'm snappy upset my fiancee don't want to be around anyone!i don't want the depression to be back.
I suppose i am stressed, have had hassle with my ex (daughters father) to which most people are saying i'm overreacting. And am worrying about money as half way into planning this wedding my fiancee was made redundant, but most of that is sorted now and i am looking forward to that. Work is worrying me, i've been struggling with colds etc for the last 3 weeks but because we're a new service i've kept going. I know they're upset with me being off as i am letting the team down but i just feel like i can't face it at the moment. I just want to sit, cry, sleep and have no interaction with anyone.
i don't want to go back to doctors, or admit to my new partner i may be ill again. how do i pull my self out of this???? wondering if i could just be burnt out and need a break, if so how without causing grief????