Someone come hold my hand

[LittleMarshmallow]

and wave a magic wand to let me sort things.

I don't know what I am doing anymore, before I moved house I was being treated for depression / stress because of the amount of pressure I have been under with ds, xh the court case and everything else.

Then last week there was an incident at uni, which I have reported but has caused me more stress / worry etc. I did as my old gp told me to do and called him but he was off on holiday and so I got an idiot who basically told me when I asked for help that I was being unreasonable etc.

So I have finally after much begging from the health board been allocated a GP only to call them yesterday to try and get a repeat prescripton for my sons food only to be told I need to see a gp (which is fine I dont mind that) but that I cant arrange an appointment I need to start calling at 8.15am and hope I get something for that day, which I explained I cant do I work 25 miles away and I have no holidays left.

I have been left with no support or any help regarding the whole court case for ds, I was put on anti-depressents which have even if they had worked I can get anymore of without going through the hoops I mentioned above.
I am at the end, I have had about 3 hours sleep a night since last week.

My eating is horrific and was meant to be dealt with by my old gp (I have been eating less and less since July). I was meant to see him this morning but since I am too worried to show my face in that surgery again after last week.

I don't know what I want anymore, but I can't be off work, as I don't get paid for it till Jan (I am counting the days) I feel like I have failed in everything I do / touch. I have asked so many times for some help / support and no one wants to do anything.

I don't expect anyone to be able to help but I hope it might feel better once it is all out

sorry to hear you have so much to cope with at once - can't think of anything practical to help but hopefully someone useful will be along soon

I have had more to deal with, xh has threatened me twice so far this year, has had to move house, the hospital which reviews ds's food allergies etc have decided I should be providing food for him to take with him when he goes overnight to xh (court ordered)
then my solicitor dropped a 3k bill on my doorstep as apprently legal aid didnt cover that bit.

Then my work withdrew my training course funding for uni and i am not liable for those costs too.

The health visitor at the last gp surgery decided without meeting me that I had made up ds's food allergies which obviously went to court, despite me having doctor / consultant statements to back me up.

My mum and I fell out at the weekend as she found out the uni incident has been reported and told me i should have kept my mouth shut and that no doubt i did something to lead the tutor on

Oh boy what a stressful situation you are in. And if there was an obvious solution you would have found it I am sure.

If you have moved you will now have a different health visitor - try contacting her to see if she's worth her salt.

Your solicitor cannot drop a bill on you if they have not warned you about costs in advance - have you had a client care letter outlining the work they will do privately plus an estimate of costs?

The solicitor told it is because legal aid took their time, so we have agreed to pay it off @150 a month.

When I called the useless new gp surgery yesterday I asked about the health visitor and was told that they would be in touch, I did tell the receptionist that I needed to talk to her about urgent / important stuff and got fobbed off again.

Everything is a mess and I just feel like I am reaching the end, there is only so much begging etc you can do and when no one helps you time and time you begin to think you must have a problem.