Thanks yommy , all that you are saying makes total sense to me ,nice to know im not going mad and there is someone els who gets this ...as at times i feel so alone , and your not going on at all.... i know exactly what you mean about wanting to be how i used to be, before i was like this i didnt worry about much , mine started when i had bad tummy bug that went on and on , turns out i was making it worse ,and was /is IBS went through various tests to find this out
that was 3 years ago and since then its just been one thing after another ....
i need to go to the doc all th time for total reasurance and then at times i still go back again to see another one ..
iv tried hypnosis , a little CBT and counceling .
i have gone to a few yoga classes which do help , i have heard of a CBT course you can do on line which i may look into .
I think it could be good if i tried it for longer , as re-train negative thinking ...
i guess its just one day at a time ..
thank you for listening to me go on xxxx