I have finally realised after more than 25 years at least that I have OCD!! I have been depressed and down for just about as long as I can remember and finally started taking Prozac 2 weeks ago as I have also been suffering from panic attacks and stress related lightheadness and admitted to myself that I can't struggle on with it any longer.
Before this I have had hypnotherapy which was a complete waste of 10 x £60 a pop sessions and still could not figure what the hell was going on with my brain!
Anyway a few days ago, I was looking through the 'No More Panic' webite and I had a revelation! I have Pure OCD, which basically means obsessional thoughts about something happening to kids, DH or me etc and I panic about everything. I think this goes back even further into my childhood as I can remember not letting anyone sit on my bed in case they creased it and I could not have been more than about 8 then .
Apparently the only thing that can help with OCD is CBT and/or SSRIs so I will definitely keep on with the Prozac (which I was thinking of stopping because it has been making my anxiety worse but I will keep trying on it for a few more weeks) and I will go back to the docs on Monday and insist they put me on the CBT list (GP would not do it before as he said the list was too long ) or ask him to refer me privately depending on the cost.
The relief of knowing that I am not a freak or evil or even completely fucked up is wonderful (actually people with Pure OCD are said to be very sensitive and loving that is why they panic about it). I have suffered with for most of my life (and it has completely ruined it) and I have now decided that I will bloody well deal with it and move on . I got some excellent books from the library today which describe me to a T and are very reassuring. Anyone else have this and can share their experiences??