I don't want to bore you but I really need a moan.
First of all, when I was 18 I was forced but my mother to have an abortion. This has made me so unhappy and I really hate her for this, although she says I would not have coped with a baby, I know I would have as people do cope. I had no say in this and it's really affected my life.
Secondly, I was with a man for 3 years who I loved very much, but about a month into the relationship I found out he lived with a woman and her kids (not his) and they were a couple and had been for some time. I went mad and ended it, but he came begging and of course, we got back together, him promising all the time to leave her, but he never did. We have now been split for about a month (I ended it) and have no plans to go back to him at all, even tho he asks me to go visit him whenever we speak on the phone.
Thirdly, my mum critisises me for EVERYTHING. I mean, I suffer from depression and some days, I wake up and cannot do a thing in regards to housework but vow to do them later on. Then when she gets home, she has a right go that I have not done a thing, but when I do the housework and have the house really sparkling, she comes on and dumps her stuff everywhere, making all my efforts undone. Also, when i'm in a strop because of the depression, she has a go at me telling I'm so moody, and that I can help the depression and that I should stop right now. I wish I could, but she thinks sufferers can just turn it off like that.
Fourthly, my mother has been chatting on the internet to ppl on a chat site since I introduced her to the net about 3 yrs back. She met this guy living in Kosovo on a chat site and now chats to him on msn messenger which has been happening about a year. She will not go without one single night chatting to him (they chat for about 4 hrs per night - it used to be from 7pm til about 4 in the morning until he had to start using a internet cafe because his home one broke) and will not go out because of this. She is so obsessed, she sends presents over and has spent about £100 on him, she even sent his mum and sister £20 for their birthdays. Last week, she even went as far as to buy some aftershave on ebay. I said, 'oh, your not sending him another present are you' and she said 'no, its for me - he wears this aftershave and I want to know what he smells like'. She has applied for a visa for him to come over and spend six months in our home. I asked, why cant he come over for just a week, and she just went mad at me. I have told her it's invading my space but she went mad at that too and asked how many times my boyfriend has been to stay, but that was different because I met him thru work, was dating him ages before he came to my house. The visa has not come thru yet, so she is booking 2 weeks to kosovo in september and is asking me to come and goes mad, swearing etc when I say no.
Is she obssesed or is it just me being insensitive?
I feel so pissed off