Its been a while since I posted, because I wanted to see how things were going, and I can report that I think I have made the first permanent steps to ridding myself of this horrible disease. I have spent the last couple of weeks not thinking about food at all, and just eating what and when I want. Yes, I've put on a couple of pounds, but thats hardly surprising considering what I was living on before. I can't pinpoint why, but I just feel so much happier, and my entire outlook has changed. My final essays are handed in on monday, and then I have the whole summer to spend with my gorgeous girl. She's just beginning to walk properly As a treat (a BIG treat!) I've bought a new pushchair, a jane powertrack. I have lusted after it for ages, and now that I've stopped wasting my money on binges I can (just about) afford it! I cant wait to take dd out for long walks and to the beach with it. I just had to tell someone how proud I am of myself, and reassure others that it IS possible to beat this. I look back on how I was a few months ago and I am amazed and saddened by how I felt and what I was doing to my body. I'm even thinking of selling my blessed bike! Juicychops, I haven't heard from you in a while, so let me just send some (((hugs))) I really hope you're ok x x x