Hi
I lurk these boards regularly looking for advice as I can never really think what to say myself. Basically, I am so anxious about everything.
I always think people don't like me, analyse everything everyone does, analyse every conversation I have and then worry about things I've said and how they could have been taken wrongly, to the point where I would rather just stay in my house and not answer phone etc in case I sound silly or say the wrong thing!
Well I feel sorry for my kids now as I really desperately want their friends round but can't ask their parents.
I also worry that people will think my house is a tip even though I know really it's not that bad. And then I worry they will be bored and have nothing to do, or we won't have the food they like etc. I drive myself crazy!
I know things have to change so this week I plucked up the courage to ask a few of DS's friends parents if I could collect their children on the way to the park and let them have a run around and then bring them back. I took a picnic and we had a fabulous time.
AND I had lovely chats with the parents when I dropped their children off.
So, then I text a few of DD1's friends parents and asked them to come to a tea party at my house today. with their mums! I have to admit I have spent the week terrified about this, and nearly faked illness! And last night I hardly slept, as wanted to keep checking everything was clean and tidy. And today I had to go to the shop to get every type of drink, food, treat etc I could think of so that everyone had something! And I made DD1 get lots of toy ready so no-one would be bored! But it all went lovely and we have made plans for a trip to the sealife centre next week.
But now I am sitting here analysing the whole day and hoping I said the right things and am already worrying about next weeks trip. But at least I have made a step in the right direction!