i know i ca'nt do anything about it and have to just let go.And i have to tell myself all the things talked about in therapy.
it is not so bad to be sick, worse things are happening all around the world far worse than what i would go through. would only be a 9 not a 10
it would be over really quickly
even if i was sick it wouldn't be as bad as i thought it would be. would maybe be 2 or 3 rungs less bad
i can think about those actually ill instead of me
i can't control it and trying to makes me unwell and restrict my life
fuck i can't remember any coping strategues and wont sleep now