Have you turned it all around?

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Tomorrow I start on citalopram.

I went to the doctor because I was scared that my emotional unstability might be damaging my ds.

Has anyone felt the same? Please tell me that I can start to feel like a good mum.

Yes. Exactly. See us on the depression support thread; we are in early days of citalopram etc and can support each other.

I went to my dr six months ago for exactly the same reason. DS1 is five (ds2 is one) and it's taken me five years to acknowledge I have PND.
Six months on I feel so much better - I no longer shout and scream at my boys, I no longer cry in front of them and have stopped looking to ds1 to pick me up. I used to tell him how I was a bad mummy (to put it lightly) and beg him to ask daddy to get him a new mummy and he'd get all upset and try to convince me I was the best mummy in the world. He was only four - what a weight to land on him!
I no longer dread the routine of my life, I enjoy being with my boys and know that I am not damaging them emotionally. I've also stopped taking my self-anger out on myself physically - which is a huge relief.
I do feel so much more like me again - I know I have a way to go to build my confidence/gain strength but I now feel I have the strength and reason to do it.
You will prob get side effects for the first three weeks or so and won't feel any difference for about a month but hang in there because it is so worth it!
You are a good mum but you just need a helping hand (in the form of a daily pill) to make you believe it. I just wished I'd asked for help sooner. x

Thanks both.
Will update on the support thread.

where do you find the support thread plz