I know what you mean. I've found it so helpful having these boards, especially for when I'm feeling crappy. An album that I've found really helpful recently is "I Stand" by Indina Menzel - all the tunes are different but all touching, in a good way. It really lifts me up. I can also sympathise about not having a distraction - I'm physically disabled so I don't get out much, and struggle at times because I'm always around by myself. Have you tried getting a hobby to keep busy with during the day? I've been doing yoga and crocheting, and its really helped to keep busy.
That's a good idea, I hope your MW is supportive. Try talking to your DP about how you're feeling a little more, especially if you're both concerned about it, it might be helpful for both of you to get it out in the open if you're both struggling. I've been told there's a possibility that I could have a psychotic break after the birth, and its something that my DP is really worried about. After we talked about it a little more, although its still scary, we're a bit more comfortable with it.
I tried to do it for years, and it finally got to the point where I'd had several suicide attempts, self harming severely, and was landed in a physc. hospital for six months. Not to scare you, I hope I didn't. But since I've started being honest, and talking about it, its helped so much. Being pregnant has given me something to live for, without wanting to sound melodramatic.
Try making a list of your concerns, and the advantages of talking about it, for you and for your family.
Thank you And with yours. Don't worry if its not all positive - find me one woman who was happy all the way through her pregnancy!!! You're most definitely not alone.