Recovering from depression and family relationships question

[ksld]

I'm not sure where to post this so apologies first if this is the wrong place.

I suffered very badly with ante-natal depression, which thankfully has gone now I am no longer pregnant. I get the odd bit of depression now and then - mainly when my period is due or if I am stressed for some reason, but tend to keep it to myself and just push on through hoping it will go away.

While I was pregnant I had to rely a lot on my DH and Stepmother to help with DS1 and care for me. Ever since I got better I have felt guilty for pushing on them so much. Whenever I see my Stepmum she will bring up in the conversation how 'badly' I behaved while pregnant, how lucky I am that DH stayed with me instead of leaving. I feel like I have to apologise and make amends each time I see her. DS2 is now 2 and a half, and I just can't see how it is ever going to end.

When I am feeling down now I find myself wondering if DH will leave instead of helping me, I feel I can't ever ask my parents for help with the kids because I have asked for too much already...

Does anyone else have this trouble with their family and have you been able to do anything to solve it?

To be honest Ksid, I don't think your stepmother has any understanding of depression or she wouldn't say those things, to suggest that you are lucky DH stayed with you is terrible.

I would not try and make amends each time you see her, she should have given her time and help unconditionally or not at all. There may come a time when she needs you.

I have suffered bad depression too and know how difficult it is, if you need a chat or anything give me a shout.