Will I ever lose my depression?

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I've been suffering on & off with depression for the last 10 years or so but recently it has got alot worse - it seems that I've also been on a multitude of different AD's including citalopram, prozac, setraline & am currently on 10mg escitalopram. Three weeks ago I was signed off work for 2 weeks cos I was at total meltdown but to be honest that didn't really help & I just had more time at home to dwell on things.
I am living under a huge black cloud and every minute is a struggle to get through. I really hate myself as have let myself go & am drinking too much to try & escape my feelings. I know this is not the right answer long term but at the mo it is helping me to get through the days. I am back at the dr on Tuesday & am curious as to what she can do to help me get out of this depair.

mwff here, in disguise!

thanks for going into it your cbt a little more tmh, very interesting, it also kind of confirms that it might not be the answer for me. hope you're having a relaxing weekend.

blushingm, it's at least hopeful that the liothyronine is still fairly new, about 10 days to a fortnight is usual for things to start kicking in isn't it? and at least you're in good hands. hope you start to find things easier very soon.

I am bipolar but it's the lows I really struggle with. I'm on multiple meds, and still not winning at the moment. Life is just stressful - I am a single mum that works full time - and my brain chemistry seems to be too messed up to sustain that for any length of time. My dd is finally asleep and soon I will be too. I know that "every minute is a struggle" feeling - I will keep checking back here because with a hand to hold you CAN get to surviving every hour, and then every day.

I'm just off to the doc (GP) to have another talk about my medication. I hate taking it and have been a bit erratic about it recently - just needing some reassurance that it is all OK.

How is everyone? Hope things are jogging along OK for everyone.

I saw the GP yesterday and explained my issues with my psychiatrist, and he said that was fine, if you don't gel with one they can easily move you to another, and that is something he could arrange for me. I'm pleased about that.

Just keeping taking the tablets! THey once gave me a bad reaction and so some morning s I sit looking at them before I take them saying "don't make me worse" - but a friend (who is a psychiatric nurse) pointed out that talking to my tablets is not exactly a sign of sanity .....

hi weegiemum - glad your gp is understanding - it makes things easier doesn't it

i keep worrying that i'll get an app for cbt and it will be with the same woman again - how do i say i want someone different and what happens if i bump into her at the clinic/hospital/where ever they decide to send me? and what happens if the cbt desn't work again - would that be my fault and what will my psych think/say/decide??

blushingm - ask your GP to refer you to someone different! They can refer you wherever, so if you want a different clinic, or different counsellor, than just ask!

Dh is a GP and he says that matching psych patients with the right doctor is part of what he does every day!