I can't cope today

[FabulousBakerGirl]

The tears are right by the surface.

I don't want to talk about what is bothering me as it makes me worse but I can't do this anymore.

No tablets in the world will fix what is wrong and I am just done with it all.

I am sorry you feel like this.I know you say you dont want to talk about it but it does help sometimes.
Does anyone know you are suffering with depression?Or are you carrying on as normal outwardly but drowing underneath?(Thats the worst place to be in my experience)

Sorry for all the questions, just trying to find out a bit more so can try to advise.

When I feel really very low nothing really helps except it does make me feel a bit better to get out of the house and just walk.Something about the rhythm of it just seems to settle me a bit?

Sorry cant be more help

FBG here is the place to put it down in words....it can only help, nobody will be looking at you so cry away... and hopefully all who read what you write will be sympathetic...i hope you can talk

Cant think of any good advice sorry, apart from making sure you talk to someone and what TGS said about getting out of the house. Just wanted you to know I read you OP and feeling for you xx

Thank you

have to take the kids now but will have to get myself out of this, it is ridiculous and so tiring.

FBG - if you don't want to talk about what is bothering you, how about just telling us how you are feeling?

FBG dont feel sad alone- im not selfish I tell you lot on MN all my misey x

Its not ridiculous to feel low.Dont go down that path of beating yourself up about it.
I know what you mean about it being tiring though..I get quite sick of myself when I am going through my bad patches.

I have got back now from shopping.

I feel lost, scared, suicidal, angry, stupid.

You need to get some help.Please call your GP.Or the Samaritans..
Or have you friends or family nearby?

I'm already on Ads and seeing a psychotherapist tmw. My heart is ruling my head at the minute and that annoys me big time. I want to move house and can't.

No family at all anywhere and no friends locally. I have a couple but they are 100s of miles away.

The weather here is beautiful today. Why not go out for the day if it's the same near you. Sitting on the computer all day will do you no good at all

You are right,

I am going to do some jobs that need doing.

Ring them.Or make an appointment with GP.Your meds might need reviewing.Sometimes the doses need a tweak or you might need to switch, some AD's have a negative effect on some people-its about finding the right one.