I'm pissed off, but it seems very childish like & I need to get it out of my head so am going to rant a little here..
I was ill in Nov with a nasty bug that lasted 2wks, my Dad came round & saw my house wasnt all that tidy and said "You lazy cow" gave me a nasty look and left. My sister done the same, so I ignored them both until I was better...FFS it was just toys and some dishes untouched, I'm a single Mum to a 2yo (well he's 2 tomorrow) and a 3yo. I have no help from anyone and get critised all the fucking time for everything...
Anyway, about 3wks after my bug had cleared my Sister got it & apologised as she was struggling to care for her 2 DD's with it and she has a dp!
I was wrecked tired, couldnt eat, keep anything down for 4-5 days, I was weak, needed some help & they gave me more shit
Lots more has happened since but today annoyed me again, I was at my Sisters and my Dad came up with some paperwork he didnt understand, Sis had a look, chatted etc, Dad put paper on table, sis's friend was there and picked it up to have a nosey...I had a look shortly after and got "Don't be nosey" in a pissed off voice from both my Dad & Sister. I left asap after as I am just about fed up of it..
I was in France for 5yrs in a dv relationship, during that time (even before they even knew about the dv) they used to write/ring beg me to come back to the UK cos they missed me etc etc, I wanted to get away from them ..at the time sis was taking drugs heavily & dad an alcoholic and it was just a way to escape back then..I came back a couple of times before leaving dp for good and staying in the UK, I don't see what all the fuss was about, I am here now & I get critised regulary off them, Dad no longer is an alcoholic and sis has a family & is off the drugs, but she has a 4yo dd who hates me, I've done nothing wrong but even if I say one word she sulks/cries and I feel bad..?!
AHH, sorry had to get that out..
feeling angry today, DS is 2 tomorrow I've tons to do ..
I've got a long term depression problem/v v difficult past also & my Dad and sis & nieces are my only family but right now I want to be out of the UK and away from this shit again..