What should i do? - cant go on like this - long ramble

[mizz]

I suffer with very bad anxiety and depression, i was on seroxat for a while but stoopped so we could TTC - not pregnant yet.

I now feel really low and awfull again, im so anxiouse all the time, my hands sweat when i drive and i can never go far. I cannot stand my inlaws, my FIL looks at my chest and it makes me feel really uncomfortable, so i hate spending time with them, i wish they would just go away. I dont trust him near my DD incase he abuses her in some way, so i have to be there all the time, just in case., he gives me the creeps. His not given my any reason to think this so why do i keep thinking it?

These feeling went away when i was on the meds, so is it just my depression returning? I have to check all the doors about 5 times before i go to bed a night incase someone snatched LO in the night. I cant talk to my OH as he just wouldnt understand at all.When i close my eyes and try to sleep i keep picturing us have a car crash

Id love to go back on meds but i just cant stand the thought of the baby been put in danger, been deformed or withdrawing from the meds when born. I would feel really selfish and awfull, {i dont think others who do are - its just me} yet i can stand the thought of been like this month in month out.

So low at the mo, ive never been this bad.

Help please, what to do?

Ask to be referred by your GP or HV for Congniative behavioural therapy. It really works.

Hi Mizz

Hope on over to the "I think I have pure OCD" thread.

There are plenty of us there who suffer anxiety and irrational thoughts.

When I am particularly stressed I get very very worried about lots of irrational things, even though they aren't going to happen - but in my head they could do.....

Perhaps counselling would help you?

Also, another thing which has helped me a bit is to avoid caffeine in all forms, tea, coffee, chocolate . It seems to flood my brain with anxiety. Also high sugar content as well....just a thought. Won't get rid of all your symptoms but may contribute a bit to them.

p.s. btw I'm not implying that caffeine is the cause of all your problems, it wasn't for me, but it doesn't help....

Try St Johns Wort (im hoping too) for a natural alternative. Also lavender esssential oil on a hanky is relaxing..

Ps. Avoid Seroxat at all cost esp if TTC