Black moods.

[alloutofnames]

I'm having one of those days. I've argued with a family member and her reaction bothers me. I'm not very good at dealing with stressful situations. And I find it do difficult to read the moods of other's that it often gets me into trouble. My temper doesn't help either though other than shouting the only person I take that out on is myself, and occasionally the doors.

I've had black moods since I was 16 they occur every few months or so. Does anyone else have these?

I don't know where the line between depression and black moods is, generally I'm fine but during my black moods everything seems so bleak, so pointless.

I've considered suicide during the worst of them and I've self harmed myself, though only by biting or tearing at my skin with my nails.

I'm rambling on I know, just curious to know if anyone else suffers from these and how frequently?

I think that sometimes the coping mecchanism that people have for when things go wrong can be really out of synch- now im not a psychiatrist I have no real experience of mental health issues but as a friend id like to suggest a thought to you(plese dont be offended).

You realise you have these 'black thoughts' you relise you hurt yourself however small and you realise your anger is an issue- why do this to yourself?

try and practice stepping back,walking away and not caring how others think.

when you feel your mood descend do something that causes you physical tiredness...a long walk in the fresh air may help.

I think you could beat this yourself by reading your body but i also think that if the situation continues you will need medical support.

Good luck

It's a compulsion. it's very difficult to stop it. It sounds silly I know.

Perhaps I should see my dr though I'm reluctant to do so. I'd feel like a hypochondriac.

I don't think family members would understand so talking to them would be of little use.

I'm a bit of mess psychologically I guess, I have an awful temper, I harm myself, I'm overly sensitive. I'm not very good at dealing with my emotions. I dislike myself. I'm very tense and anxious and have a long list of phobias.

I somehow feel that if I go to the drs there'd be no point as there's so many issues to deal with that they couldn't be dealt with. Which is also silly I know.

"I somehow feel that if I go to the drs there'd be no point as there's so many issues to deal with that they couldn't be dealt with."

But in the first instance, wouldn't a dr simply refer you for some counselling? And a counsellor is the perfect place to go through that list of yours.

I just think that if this has been going on for years, and that if you sometimes harm yourself, you really should be doing yourself a favour and getting someone to help. Why be so hard on yourself that you put up with it?

A counsellor sounds like a good idea, though I'm paranoid that no one will take me seriously because I've had this for years and have managed to scrape by.

alloutofnames - do see the gp to start with and a counsellor may help, although it may take a while to get to the right one. start with the gp. don't be paranoid just because you are coping.

nick'schick - i know you mean well but advice like that is really unhelpful. tho op is obviously doing her best and frankly a bloody good job considering so implying that it is that easy is just not fair.

Alloutofnames, sorry to be really blunt but if you're hurting yourself, then it's serious. You've got a range of coping strategies, but occasionally they're not working.

I saw a counsellor after a particular incident. She helped me realise that actually, I did need to acknowledge what had happened, and that it was ok to feel shit about it. I'd spent ages trying to deny it had happened. Only when I was able to say to myself, "actually, what happened to me is bad" was I able to deal with it.