Having a melltdown, please someone sympathetic talk to me

[DumbledoresGirl]

I am in my kitchen crying and crying. I have just refused to meet a kitchen planner who came round to plan our kitchen. I have just screamed (and I mean screamed) at my son to tell his friends to go away. My husband is here but angry for me for being as I am. I am just crying and rocking and rocking and crying. I feel I want the whole world to go away but I also want someone to hold me and say everything is going to be all right.

How long have you been feeling like this, DG?

for you. Everything will be alright. It really will.

everything will be all right. you feel awful at the moment, but this is temporary - like the other times you've been in thrall to panic/anxiety, it's horrible and painful at the time, but you will come out of this and feel better.

Me too. I'm about as much use as a chocolate teapot to you but I am the same if that makes you feel any better.

was there are particular phobia related trigger to this DG?

aww DG its a low point but there are high points aswell. DS will survive you screaming, DH will forgive you, Kitchen planner.well can do it online.

take some time out

Do you have coping techniques which have worked before when you feel like this?

Has something bad happened today? Have you anyone in rl to talk to?

Oh DG I feel for you. Everything will be ok. I do this often and you do come through it.

This isn't related to my phobia, thank god for that I suppose. I have just had enough. I can't take the stress of my life anymore.

I am sorry hobbgoblin if you feel the same way as me.

What can you do, right now, to calm yourself down and make yourself feel a little better. A hot bath?

I have made a cup of tea. I am shivering, I don't know why. I am trying to put some tea together too, but I can hardly see for crying.

Can dh not do tea. or takeaway? Calm yourself first tea can wait. Any idea what has triggered it?

An accumulation of stresses. Too much to go into really. It seems to have turned on a tap I can't turn off.

Dh could not do the tea. When last he did it (shop bought fish and chips he only had to heat up) he burnt the lot. Anyway, he is angry with me for hiding from the kitchen planner but I just couldn't face her. I have spent all day on my bed, not really doing anything.

I feel fractionally better now than I did during my melt down within last hour.

I cried, loads, and outpoured, loads. Self pity galore. Changed facebook status to pointless (more self pity) and picture to something akin to mood, sent a teary email deriding myself, stopped thinking about how I'd like things to be in the last 20 mins (have banned self for next hour).

It has stopped me sobbing uncontrollably. Any of that help?

I do know you sometimes have to allow self to get off the wheel.

I sat on my bed all day pretty much. Loaded the dishwasher and let the BT guy in, that's it. Dished out crap for DC tea. This is after days of baking bread from scratch and roast dinner cooking, so a big departure from normal.

Are you feeling any better by comparison?

That sounds just like me hobbgoblin. I just want to step off the treadmill. I don't mean I am suicidal, but right now I want to curl up into a ball and have things done for me. BUt that isn't going to happen round here. Dh can be sympathetic, but today isn't one of those days.

I have finally managed to stop crying because I couldn't see the instructions on the packet.

i am so sorry you are feeling like this DG. are you under the care of anyone right now? doc? psych? counsellor?

No, just me caring for me. And a crap job I am making of it.

I am not depressed, I don't think. Just major major stresses.

I'm not brilliant at sympathy as I never know what to say. But I did want to post something that might let you know that there is another person out there who wants you to feel a bit better. If it helps, I had bit of a meltdown the other night, and thought nothing would ever be the same again. Weirdly, I feel a lot better just a few days later. I hope you do too. Even if he burns the tea and serves up crap, I think you should get DH to cook. Go and have a bath or something, or go out on your own. Does wonders for me.

I don't want to die either lovey, but I do want some space and pressure alleviation. It is difficult to ask for that. Depending on the underlying cause of your feelings, it can also be hard to allow yourself to take some time away. I'm sure it doesn't help having a DH that doesn't always pick up where you leave off. And then there is the guilt that follows even if you do just give up for a day, so it is self perpetuating.

God the relentlessness of it! I asked my GP (only half tongue in cheek) if I could be knocked out for a couple of months. Don't know about you but I'd LOVE that.

Honestly, asking dh to cook would make things worse. he has a lot on his plate too and is very busy as i am standing here typing and ignoring the tea cooking. He never cooks normally so it is not something he could easily do. I just need to get it out the way though as, once tea is done, he can handle evrything else and I can go to bed.

Hobbgoblin - I daydream about breaking my leg so I can have weeks in hospital in traction and then by waited on hand and foot for another few weeks at home. I guess that is the same as you wanting to be knocked out.

i think you are depressed. you have posted in mental health and what oyu say sounds like someone who is depressed. wanting to opt out, not die, but just stop is quite a big sign.

i would really consider getting some help, so you can start to feel better

DG, I be kind to yourself, things have got on top of you. Just focus on you and everything else will sort itself. I am guessing dinner isn't far off being ready?
If he can't make the dinner, can you get your DH to go and run you a bubble bath so it is ready for you when you can get into it?

Try not to think of anything further than getting into the bath.