That doesn't sound strange at all nabster!! Sounds perfectly normal based on what you said there. Also, don't think you are alone in that, i do that too - i can't just think, oh hes late, there must be traffic, im fecking planning his wake FFS!!! I do this alot - so, i have issues too, but i think that those so called "normal" people do it too. I think these sort of thoughts present themselves more when you are anxious. I have done the whole - hmm, i wonder what would happen if i stabbed myself in the belly, jumped in front of a bus (i imagine the mess FFS!) but i do think that is just an anxiety thing and i KNOW i'd never do them.
I think you should be as honest as you can be - most of my anxieties are about my health and relationship with DP, i don't talk about my DD because its not an issue for me, I do talk about her, but not in the sense of badness. Just conversation. My counsellor has NEVER asked. Have you had counselling before? You know - the only thing that has stuck in my mind is that they are obliged to break confidence if - You are deemed as an immediate danger to yourself or others (but honestly, i think you have to be raving mad and you are not!) and if you tell them about terrorist activity and money laundering So i reckon you are pretty safe on that score - (did you get that batch of £50s i sent you?)
THEY ARE NOT GOING TO TAKE YOUR CHILDREN AWAY FROM YOU!!!
My counsellor never pushes me too hard, if i say Nup, don't want to go there - she will just say OK, when you are ready.
Keep yourself busy in between then and now if you can and try to put it out of your mind. You will probably just discuss your meds and if you feel they work for you, you will be asked what sort of help you are wanting, what you feel your main problems are and how you want to tackle it. Its not so scary really.