happiness pills

[margobambino]

Is there a pill that make you happy? I am so unhappy!

Why?

No pill just take lots of advice and support, drink lots of water, make sure you eat
The first thing is to try and at least take basic care of yourself.
And remember that these bad experiences make us who we are, more caring and empathetic.
If it don't kill ya...blah blah.

And here is a poem my friend sent me yesterday

Take Courage

I can't change what you are going through,

I have no words to make a difference

no answers, or solutions to make things easier for you

But if it helps in any way I want to say I care

Please know that even when you're lonely

You're not alone

I'll be here, supporting you with my thoughts

Cheering for you with all my strength

Praying for you with all my heart.

For whatever you need, for as long as it takes

Lean on my love.

It should be named the MN poem lol

I don't know, constantly worried about everything, blaming myself for every single thing, and a very deep sense of anxiety and pain since I had my DS. I have been seeing my doctor and will continue seeing him but don't believe anybody can help. Just looking for a miracle pill. I know it is impossible. Just dreaming.

Thank you StercusAccidit, good poem.

Anybody used antidepressant Cipralex? My GP may prescribe something like that if I agree.

No problem.
Good for you for seeing your doctor.
I'm a bit useless atm don't want to put my foot in my gob with you but i do hope you are ok.
No happiness pill i'm afraid as i say, but you will find a lot of friendly people here and a lot of support xx

I take it your DS is a baby still? It is very hard i know. I love mine to bits but feeling a bit down atm not with baby but very disillusioned with my DP.. i get angry at him rather than the baby though so its all good lol.

PND is my worst nightmare i had it really bad after my DD's birth 14 years ago and wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

What treatment have they offered you for it?

X posted sorry.
I haven't. Have you been on AD's before?

Anything would help better than nothing i'm sure.

At least you are brave enough to seek help. It can be very difficult to admit something is wrong and make yourself feel inadequate as a mother. IMO you therefore have done very well so far

My DS is 20 months but I am still depressed. I read somewhere that there is another peak of PND at about 18th month. I used sertraline last year but did not work much. I am still breastfeeding an don't feel very comfortable with AD idea but I think I'm gonna have to.
How long did your PND last?
Sorry to hear that you are disillusioned with your DP by the way.

NP hun don't feel worried about me this is about you lol..just trying to empathise

BFing and AD's i know not much about. I do know my PND miraculously went the day i chucked out my ExP and there on in i had a happy baby and a lot of support from my sister who i love to bits (but hated as a kid lol)

I REALLY feel for you cos it felt like i was a shit mum, i couldn't bond with my DD, yet i was totally overprotective of her, once screaming that she wasn't a 'pass the parcel' when passed from MIL to SIL
I obsessively cleaned and for my own reasons would leave her with no one for five minutes, especially not a man, even her father.

It sure manifests in odd ways.
Each making you feel as shit as the other.
I was afraid/didn't know anything was wrong so didn't seek help.
Thank god i have never had it since (i believe it was triggered by guilt about not BF'ing..i have BF both my boys and had not a single sign of it) and being an older mum has helped tremendously this time too... i have tons more patience.

Still have off days though. Can't be good all the time. Do you have friends in RL who you can talk to? Sometimes motherhood can be a lonely and isolating experience, especially BFing if you feel tied a home because of the thought of feeding while out and about.. or your friends don't have kids, leaving work can leave you isolated, living in an area you don't know anyone, extended families are few and far between, the list of reasons are endless...
The internet is great for getting answers and support but sometimes you need a good cry, or a chat to a real, live adult, and t'internet cannot supply that.

I really am wishing you the best with all my heart flower.

Hello i am feeling nothin but complete and utter relief that i saw my GP 3 weeks ago. I could barely put a sentence together cos I was crying so much about how terrible i was feeling i landed up whispering to him!!

Anyway the AD's have kicked in and im starting to feel SO much better - its like i can see in color again!! Good luck everyone and thank heavens PND is a highly treatable illness xxx

I find it best to write everything i want to tell the doctor down because i ALWAYS end up blubbing.
OP how are you today i hope you're ok x

Thanks Peta100 and StercusAccidit. No, I am still not OK. Irritable, tearful, breatheless with anxiety, very tired and sleepy. Even suicide centres in Switzerland came to my mind a couple of times. Don't panick, I wouldn't do something like that but even thinking about it is extreme for me as I used to be a lively person.
I am seeing a psychiatrist on 17th. Hope they help.

I think when you know how you used to be it hits you harder when you do feel down..because it makes you feel like, "Where is the me that would laugh at the mere thought of me being like this"

I know how that feels.

I hope the psych can help too.