Hi, Just want to get it all out really.
I feel like i've hit rock bottom at the moment. I think all the worry about DD being ill for over 2 months has something to do with it. I'm a full-time student and work part-time, really need the money, as DD nursery fees have gone up again. DD behaviour can be very trying at times, i think shes a tad OCD. where DD has been ill i've missed lectures, some of which i needed to attend to be able to get notes for my assignment. I feel no-one in RL listens to me, i think sometimes i'd get more sense out of a brick wall. I always try and please people and put myself last (iykwim). I never done to well at school, so i put alot of pressure on myself to excell and exceed expectations, even tho i know i'm top of my class and got distinctions in everything so far. I don't need ppl getting on at me for not smiling every second of the day. I just feel i've got the world on top of me. DP is brilliant, there are sometimes when i think he could be a little more sensitive and listen to me, but i know he needs his space and outlet too. we are also putting a new fitted bathroom in so our house is a mess, which i know it will be till finished, which is one thing i wish DP would get on and do, instead of getting home and not doing anything. Its all getting me down, i don't want to feel like this. It doesn't help that i've got a chest infection too.
just needed to get things off my chest sorry its long.