I get so lonely, it makes me angry with myself.

[CompleteSaddo]

I can't stand being this crap person who craves company.

It's not unusual or 'wrong' if you feel lonely. I used to feel like that a lot and fully expect to feel that way again soon.
It is hard to cope with and doesn't make you a crap person at all. I think lots of people go through this tbh.
Are you on your own? and are you depressed?

I am depressed

Have you talked to your GP or a counsellor? If not, then you certainly should.

What do you think has made you feel depressed?

No I haven't talked to a GP or counsellor.

I have a bad situation that I have to live with.

Then you really do need to book an appointment with a professional.

I doubt that you'd want to air your situation on here and perhaps you shouldn't, but you obviously do need to talk to someone in confidence or you may just become more depressed and then more lonely and so on.

Why don't you ring to make an appointment tomorrow and get a referral to a counsellor? I started seeing one two weeks ago, there is no shame in it and you may find it really helps you to come to terms with whatever it is that is troubling you.

Why are you feeling lonely?

Maybe I'll try after half term.

I don't know why I'm so lonely.

Well, if you want to just chat with us on here a while, we'll listen...Don't know how much good I'll be personally as I'm in a bit of a place myself right now, but at least you'll know that you aren't the only one...x

Do you have half term this week or next?

Humans are mostly social animals, CompleteSaddo - it is not unusual to need company at least some of the time. The "odd ones" are those who don't need company at all.

What is making you feel depressed and lonely? are you in a bad relationship, or not in a relationship and want to be? If you don't give us more info, you will not get much useful advice, I'm afraid.

Sorry for you that you are feeling this way.

Thanks. Half term next week.

I just feel so low. I'm acting pretty well but as soon as I'm alone I just want to bury my head or hide in a cupboard. It's like a massive heavy blackness comes down all over me.

Bad relationship.

Thing is, I do like my own company - if I can go out and walk, I enjoy eing away from people. But on my own terms I suppose.
Perhaps I'm just miserable anyway atm no matter what,

If a bad relationship, why do you have to live with it?

I just do, it's complicated. I just need to live with living with it.

If you are depressed then you need some help to get to grips with it before you spiral down into a black pit. Either counselling to talk about your issues, or ADs if you think it is biochemical/ hormonal.

Do not sit back and do nothing - it will not help you.

In that case, talking it over is the best way forward IMO. Sometimes it helps you to put your cards in the right order when you talk it out loud to a person not connected or with any attached opinion.

How do I know which it is?

Sometimes I feel so bad I can't even move.

biochemical depression is usually something that happens for unknown reasons - it just comes over you. Your depression seems, from what you have said, to be related to the position in which you find yourself and is therefore from a known cause. Although ADs might still help you, it will only be temporary relief as the real problem is your living situation.

So the better route might be the counselling route - then you can work out if you can live the life you are living and make it work better for you, or change it.

you know i used to feel like this and i ignored it, mine was triggered by have a termination i didnt want to have, then hating myself for it.
i started drinking heavily, and cutting myself, and contemplating suicide i let it get so bad.

please please, get some help.
even if its just some pills, they do work, and you will see everything more clearly.

i hope u get what you need xx

\thank you. I am going to try and sleep now.

Good! try to sleep well. Night!x

I am also cutting myself. And starving.

Get some help. I'm assuming you have children and you owe it to yourself and your kids to sort yourself out. Remember, kids see more than you think and behaviour is learned. You don't want this for them do you...