Has anyone else felt like this

[Sorryforbeinganuisance]

I am sorry, and I don't want to make anyone worried.

I just could do with talking to someone who has been here - I'm feeling like I don't want to go on at the moment. Not sure why and I have felt like it before, occasionally, so I know I won't do anything stupid - I've children and I know I can't leave them without a mum, so please don't panic.

Just in a lot of physical and mental pain at the moment, and it feels like it'll never end and tbh I'm not sure how to manage it.

I'm going to try and see the Dr and ask about counselling, but it would be really good if someone who has been where I am today could tell me it's possible to get past it.

Sorry again and thankyou if you can just say it gets better.

(am regular btw, just namechanged due to pathetic state of mind)

sweetie....you will get passed it, and you will feel better too.

first things first...your physical pain...do you have medication to control it? can you take your maximum dose to give you a break from that at all?
the mental pain is harder....can you distract yourself for a while, to empty your head????

read a book, go for a brisk walk...watch an old film, phone a friend..anything to get your mind in another place for the immediate few minutes???

i know how you feel.......sending you a big squeeze ((((())))) x

if it helps just write more stuff down here and get it out. Please please call your doctor though. You need to speak to some one openly and freely. They will understand the way you are feeling and can help you speak to someone who will help you through it. my sister in law is a psychologist and these felling are so much more prevalent than you think. sending you lots of love xxxx

Thanks I really timed it a bit badly didn'tI, just noticed another thread is on at the mo and tbh it's similar to that. I can't do it because I have children. Just not sure if life is just going to be a long long time in pain and I can't stand it.

I understand the thing about doing something immediate. It's probably the only way through it isn't it

I'm so glad not to be alone, thankyou so much for being kind x

I do have painkillers but they're not working very well, I am getting in such a flap, it's a chronic thing and keeps coming back iyswim.

I'll ring Drs tomorrow and try and see someone about counselling. Have meant to gett it organised for a while but things haven;t been this bad.

hey...calm down now.......

you're working yourself up into a flap.

take a few deep calming breaths now and take a moment to gather your thoughts.....

i think you should phone your gp now and see if you can get some immediate medication to ease your anxiety....if not your gp, then your hv.....can you phone now, and tell them how anxious you're feeling???

i'm here for a little while longer........ will wait around for your reply. x

Thanks Choc you are really helping. I sat here for ages thinking I mustn't post on MN about it, everyone will be cross, it's selfish, and just had nowhere else to turn and there you were.

Ds2 has gone to sleep and I've got to go and get ds1 from school now.

I'll try and post later on but if I don't, don't worry about me I am just busy with the boys.

Thanks you have been really kind and I feel a bit lighter now I've written it down xx

don't wait till tomorrow, do it now when you get home from school. you have taken a big step writing it down, you need to follow it through and get some more help. sending more love xxxxxx

honestly...i can identify so much with how you feel...not the physical pain, but the emotional.

i'm glad i was here...i hope you feel better very soon... i won't be around later...i have to go on the school run too, and am working later...

no one on mn gets cross about posts like yours....about moldies, fruit shoots, and nasty people, yes, but not mums who are having a hard time...its what mn is best at.

i'm glad you feel a little better....you must go and see your gp......if you can't get an appt, then you must insist, and you are an emergency...you can't go on over the weekend feeling like you do...

get through today, try and be kind to yourself this eve....nice bath, nice film (dirty dancing/top gun/grease!!) magazine, early night and tomorrow is a new day.....

keep your chin up, and i'll come back tomorrow. hope you're ok. xxx

Hello, Rufus and Choc. Thankyou for being so lovely, it does help to know other people have been there and are still, well, here..

I went to get ds and am trying to pretend everything is fine but have briefly lost it a bit with him. I think I must have a rubbish pain threshold. Have had some stronger painkillers now and I think they are starting to help, it's amazing what a difference that can make.

Hope you have a good evening at work, anyway...am just going to take it slowly tonight. I really needed to offload earlier, was sitting here in floods of tears and knew if I didn't let it out I'd be crying in front of ds so it definitely helped.

Thanks again xx

morning nuisance!

how you feeling today? hope its a better day than yesterday for you.

i'm off out today, but will be back a bit later....

thinking of you. do ring the docs, and try to get yourself somthing sorted.

here, have another hug. ((((()))))

x