I had a falling out with someone on another site yesterday, all her mates jumped in and wound it all up twisted it all around and i got thrown in the poo.
I wasn't even being nasty and i feel so gutted that she or anyone might think that,
i also feel extreemly hurt that others had to twist things and start being nasty to me, i read back through all my posts and cant find where i was nasty at all, i have of course had support, ie people on my side but it still made me feel pretty crap.
Whats hurt more is the girl who i was supposed to have fallen out with started mentioning my business saying she wouldnt buy off me etc, fair enough she dosnt want to spend money with me but she didnt have to drag my business into the row on a public forum, it had nothing to do with anything,.
I asked the site owner 3 times for the post mentioning my business to be removed and have had no response, then i find out in emails that the site owner and her are pals so of course they wont remove the post.
Its taken me 3 years to come out of extreem depression, my business, although very small and not making money, was my way of proving my worth to my self, this has been a massive kick in the teeth,
today im just feeling i dont want to go on, i know it might seem petty to say that but im so extreemly down right now.
i feel as if this post is hanging over me , i feel sick and keep going back to read it which of course gets me wound up even more,
it seems so unfair that this has happened im angry but know if i post over their again i will get jumped on. i feel i have lost my lifeline, people i thought were friends have suddenly turned on my for the most stupid of reasons, they are like a bunch of sheep
dont know what this will achieve , nothing i guess, just need to get some of my anger out so i dont take it out on my self,
havent felt this low for a long time