Need to get things of my chest.

[SammyK]

I need to offload, I feel like . .. I don't know - weird.

I am so...

DS has ASD, and I love him so much but I am very tired as he doens't sleep and is very wearing in terms of how I have to interact with him and the help he needs. But I love him and just feel sad for him as when he is in his little bubble he is happy but when the world is not as he likes it he is so sad and anxious. I am doing his DLA form and trying to get him a dx, it feels like an uphill battle.

DP and I are on the rocks, so bad he has said he wil contact relate. He seemed to realise how bad things were the other day when I came clean and said I was still thinking of leaving.

I had PND, waited til ds was 3 before going to docs(!), and came off ADs about a month (?) ago as just felt numb on them. Now feel very black.

Have put on loads of weight (am an emotional eater), binged today when I finished work and now feel sick, tight chest, tummy ache, etc. Want to be sick but daren't.
I also have a bad back, a front and back prolapse, IBS, and am on ABs fr my skin which is constantly spotty and has been for oh, 14 years now.

DS, DSS1 and DSS2 are upstairs, and I am having to sit near the bottom of the stairs so I can hear them as two eldest have serious sibling issues going on and we are closely monitoring their behaviour. Plus DS is upstairs with them and I want him to spend time with his big bros, but have to have a constant ear on him.

I want to sit outside in the dark and howl.

Oh no, sounds like an awful lot going on for you right.

It is quite common for things to wash over you more when you're on ADs. Then you come off them and it can be so hard again. Did you ever do any counselling for the PND? I found that was much more helpful in the long term than the ADs actually.

oh sweetheart

you know that you have to go back to the doctor, tell him or her all that you have told us in your OP.

[squeeze]

No said I would have it and nothing ever came of it. Found it ridiculously hard to even remember to get my repeat prescription in on time, and go pick it up, and take it to chemist never mind chasing up counselling.

I felt like I wasn't real on them, like I was seperated from everything.

Everyhting is too much for me, but I can't see the wood for the trees.

hi boys

Hi, sorry, I crashed out last night. How long were you actually on the anti-depressants and did you come off them slowly?

Sometimes a particular drug really doesn't suit us and we have to switch and try a different one if it's not working. Consider going back to your GP and trying something else.

Really try and pursue the counselling, this is what is going to make the biggest difference because it's our thoughts that make us depressed in the first place. Counselling changes the way we think.

Sammy how are things love ?

It's no wonder you've got IBS with all that going on. Fwiw, that started with a vengeance for me when I started taking ADs. Really pissed me off as I'd resisted them for years.
Just wondered if your symptoms co-incided with starting them. It did eventually clear up after an exclusion diet.

But you can use diet to feel better - there's a website called ((www.theradiantway.com)) - my machine can't do links. You can't stop bad things happening. But your reactions to events are totally different when your brain chemistry is sorted - and not clouded by ADs.

I am not feeling as bad today, just confused about the mess of my life oh and hungover (I dont often partake in boozing these days as DS doesnt sleep well and I just suffer).

I feel like evrytime I come on MN I have some issue or crisis I need help with, people are probably fed up of advising me and holding my hand.

I have had IBS a long while, before DS and he is 4. It is definately stress linked, and also linked to certain foods (bread) I think - but I crave bread which doesn't help. I will check out that link thanks.

I do feel the ADs were clouding me, I was just going along, howver I decide to tackle my relationship (fight for it or leave), I need to feel to decide what to do once and for all.

Sometimes the thing you crave is what's bad for you.