Is anyone like this? For a long time I thought worrying was normal, but I think the amount of worrying I do goes way beyond normal. I worry about everything; often about things that are so beyond my control.
For instance, I seriously worry about something disasterous happening to the earth and me not being able to save my children. I worry about floods, fire, terrorist attacks.
I worry about 'little' things too - dcs getting ill, falling over, hurting themselves, not being happy, getting bullied at school (they're not school age yet), getting in with the wrong crowd etc.
Sometimes when I'm lying in bed I start thinking about my own mortality. The thought of dying and leaving my children terrifies me. Even more terrifying is the thought of my children dying before me. I could cry now thinking about it. Then I question whether there really is life after death, I believe in it but possibly only because the other alternative doesn't bear thinking about for me. My dh often very casually says that the concept of heaven etc is made up to stop people going mad. There's nothing beyond this life blah blah blah. I think he's probably true and I know that I won't know anything about it if that's the case but the thought of it still terrifies me.
Sometimes I seem to worry so much about what could or may happen that I can't just live for the moment and enjoy my life.
I don't know if this is a serious problem. I don't think I'm depressed. Am I just neurotic? Do I just need to snap out of it? I get overwhelmed and exhausted from worrying so much and I don't know what I can do to stop it, and I don't feel like I can voice my fears because I know deep down that a lot of them are simply irrational.
Sorry for the long post. It could have been longer, I could go on for ages!
Thanks for reading