Been crying now for over an hour and a half, cant seem to stop. has been building up now for nearly a year and feel i am almost at breaking point. my fam and friends are very supportive but i feel i cant talk to any of them honestly and tell them i feel like my heart is being ripped out. every day i get up and carry on with a smile on my face and i am sure everyone thinks everything is ok. every day i watch my little beautiful 6 year old plod on never complaining that he has to take horrible medicines or miss school, he doesnt complain if he is throwing up from the effects of the chemo he is having every 3 weeks in 6. he has gone from such a strong confident little boy to a shell of what he was, he has no confidence now and is so easily upset. he gets confused when u ask him simple questions and he cant remember the answers. he struggles to eat most of the time so is fed overnight by a tube up his nose....but he never complains. is so unfair. it hurts so much. sorry but needed to get this off my chest. dont even think it has helped much. i feel selfish for feeling this way i should be happy he is getting the treatment but i feel i cant allow myself to get my hopes up too much about him getting better just in case the tumor comes back.