What a crap few days I've had, hope it starts to buck up again soon.
The day before yesterday I started feeling ill and had an early night, yesterday afternoon I took a turn for the worse and nearly collapsed, I had the doctor out who told me that I had a bad virus and prescribed lots of fluids and rest for the next few days, I can't eat because I feel so ill. Anyway, after I went to bed yesterday afternoon after i went to bed,too ill, by the way to look after dd1 and dd2, dh went to the pub promising not to be late or come in drunk. I fell asleep and when I finally dragged myself downstairs to feed the kids i checked in on dd1's bedroom and she had completely trashed it,i must have really zonked out not to hear the noise she must have made.
Anyway, I went back to bed at 6.30pm after the kids had their tea and they watched a dvd in bed with me,by midnight there was still no sign of dh. I phoned his mate who was out with and he said he was on his way home, his mate sounded sober,so stupidly my hopes were raised, i then heard a bang, he fell up the steps at the back and couldn't get his key in the lock, i let him in and then he went mad at me for 'checking up on him'.
He has just come to bed and stinks to high heaven of stale beer and smoke, i still feel really ill, but has just got into bed cos he is ill knowing that I wouldn't be able to lie at the side of him smelling like that, so I have had to come downstairs to deal with the kids.
AND to top it off, last year I made a friend who I found out to have terminal cancer, I have phoned her over the past couple of months and not received a reply, i put this down to her needing lots of rest and having hospital appointments etc, I got a letter off her this morning say ' tells me you have been trying to contact me, please don't call anymore'.
So now i am really pissed off, can do nothing but cry and feel too ill to go out or do anything.
Sorry for the rant and if you managed to read all this you deserve a medal. I hoped writing it all down would make me feel better but it doesn't