i feel so down and just like i can't be bothered with anything.........

[blushingm]

why do i feel ike this?? I have a lovely if a bit messy house, a lovely dh, 2 lovely dc's, 2 jobs a car but i can't be bothered doing anything

it's my work afternoon off friday - i really really really don't want to go, i'd rather just stay in bed. Nothing seems exciting it feels like everything has or is about to go wrong

hiya blushingm, just been reading this 'conversation' and i feel exactly the same as what you have described. i have just been to see my doc today who has diagnosed post natal depression ( i have a boy 2yrs and a girl 8m ). it has took me ages to talk to someone about this and i havent started any meds yet but i have been px fluoxetine. i hope this helps just knowing your not alone in feeling like this. take care, and talk to someone

blushingm - I know how you feel. I feel exactly the same Will watch thread, hopefully will get some advice (no-one answers my threads).

well i had the do - hated it felt so self conscious and like everyone was looking and laughing at me. I work with pretty stick insects.....................all with perfecct hair and pretty dresses trying to get me to drink (i'm teetotal). so boring and old aren't i?

do vitamins really perk you up - i need a truck load

I'm sure they weren't like that, it's just how you 'felt'. Paranoia can creep in when you feel low. Not nice of them to try to get you to drink but people get silly when they've had booze.

I know lacking in b vitamins can make you stressed but I'd get the advice of a professional if I were you. Doesn't sound like life's much fun right now?

no it's not fun - i haven't even been out christmas shopping for some of the reasons above - all done on line. in the last 6 months i ve been out twice - once was to the cinema where it's dark. I haven't done food shopping for over a year

ps - how do you know if you need vitamin b?

But you go out to work don't you?

I think you'd need blood tests to find out if you have any major nutrient deficiency. Your dr could refer you to a nutritionist.

Do you think you have agrophobia? I had that for a while due to panic disorder. Thankfully meds helped me through that.

i'd never thought about agoraphobia - what meds helped you - do you mind me asking?

i work 2 days a week - i get in early (about 7.15) don't go out until it's home time when i egt in the car and go home

I'm on citalopram but your dr would need to see what suited you and if you even have it?

If you're seeing a consultant about it then he would've maybe picked up by now? How long have you been going?

i've only seen him 4 times - saw sho's before that.

I've tried citalopram about 2 years ago

consultant seems to think i have clinical depression and ocd but i don't know. on lithium and fluoxetine now

do you mind me asking how you think the citalopram helps - maybe i'm just expecting miracles from the medication

I'm not sure how it helps but it does. Have you had Cognitive behavioural therapy? My friend has ocd (milder now) and thought that helped a lot.

Do you still feel as low as you did?

Can I ask what your childhood was like? You don't need to say of course I'm just curious. My friend with ocd had a bad relationship with her mother.

I don't mind you asking........i haven't seen my mum in nearly 7 years (she's never met my kids) she's an alcoholic and has been for a long long time. my parents are divorced and i've only just started getting closer to my dad and his new wife. My sister lives a long way away, my brother is localish - he sees my mum regularly (he still lives in the town where i grew up)but my sister has nothing to do with her. I pretty much looked after myself during my teens and my brother. None of us were very close growing up as my mum made it difficult and would manipulate situations so we'd be at each others troats - divide and rule - is this similar to your friend?

I had CBT ( thankfully the wait here is only a few weeks at the most) but i don't think i clicked with the woman so found it hard to believe what she said (if that's the right word) She was a bit older and a bit boho like with no dp or any children - she seems to think(in her words)that my mum 'fucked' me up

i still do feel low - plus my work colleague died suddenly on sunday (he was 36) and so did my best friends dad..........could't make it up could you.

I just can get any bounce in me - i'm trying for the dc's as it's christmas but it all still seems like a chore

sorry this turned into an essay - it's so kind for you to bother and show some interest xxxx

You sound so very much like my friend. She more or less brought her and her brother up. Her mother wasn't an alchoholic though.

If you read what you wrote there you must see you have good reason to feel the way you do. It all comes out at some point in your life. Do you feel much guilt? What I mean is do you tend to feel guilty about things that most wouldn't even bother about?
You should've been nurtured like you do with your children and not had to put up with fending for yourself You're at no fault, either for how you were treated or how you feel. Be kind to yourself. Try any type of relaxation technique, whether it's relaxing music, a massage from dp, painting, knitting, hot bath with candles and oils.... whatever makes you feel nice. When you're feeling better maybe you could do a course at college on a day when you're not working? Just take it slow.

Keep posting when you get time over the holidays. xxxx

oh dizzy you are soooooooo lovely

I feel guilty about EVERYTHING and that's everything is all my fault. I feel guilty doing anything for me........kids, dh etc are more deserving of nice things

I've thought about college but what if I'm no good at it - i'll lkk like an idiot

We all feel like that about something new. I went to an art class and was bricking it but got on ok and it was fun. Maybe try an access course or a fun course first to break you in.

It'll take time to lose the guilt but you can do it. chat soon xx

hope you had a lovely christmas dizzyxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yes I've enjoyed it thanks . How did yours go?

was ok - kids were wild - i just couldn't find the magic though......maybe next year??????

might just make a gp appointment next week......or do i call the consultant??? or do i just wait....... aaaaaarrrrrrrgggggghhhhh i need to make decisions!!!!!

Go with your gut feeling, I'd say call consultand and if no joy then the gp.

A lot of people find Christmas day a let down. Ok is better than awful though isn't it?

How are you today? x

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ooh knickers that's kind of you thanks!!!!

ps i missedd the post office so the sling won't go til monday - hope thats ok xx