Hi! I am posting this in the hope that some of you will share your opinions or experiences. I have 6 children. The youngest is 8 months. The others are 10. 9, 6,4,and 2. I am a SAHM, DH works fairly long hours. We have no other family or freinds nearby. Financially we are struggling. And the problem is I am feeling totaly overwhelmed.But I don't know whether this could be some degree of PPD , or just life. I have had PPD before after the birth of my 4 yr old. It took me ages to amit it, and seek help. Eventuslly I was put on citalopram which worked REALLY well. Everyone who knew me commented on how much less stressed out I seemed even though they didn't know I was on meds. I felt so much calmer and more able to cope. I wasn't on it for long , and was fine when I came off it - till now. I feel so low, overwhelmed and totally stressed out and snappy all.the.time. The house is a total mess and I just haven't got the motivation to tackle it. I feel so bad cause I so want to have fune with and enjoy my kids, and instead I just snap at them and shout at them continuously. The baby was breastfed till very recently but I have just weaned him on to bottles as he was such a bad sleeper - he needed to feed about every hour in the night, if he didn't my supply dropped and he was tarving. I was so exhausted - so on bottles he is now sleeping a good 6 - 7 hour stretch which is briliant, but at the same time I am so devastated and tearful at giving up breastfeeding. I feel like I've given up on himm and let him down.My 4 year old is also extremely challenging - we suspect she may have some form of sensory processing disorder.
I am tempted to go to the doc to see about going back on meds. But part of me wonders how much of it is just all I have to cope with. Life is SUCH a struggle, and maybe meds wont change that .
If you read this far thanks. I have no one IRL I can discuss this with so would love to hear any views. How dod you decide if you had PPD as oppose to just having a tough life?!