now that I've lot my job, the 'black dog' is back on my shoulder again

[MuchLessTiredNow]

lost my job 3 weeks ago. before that I had bad PND for 5 years, which got markedly better in the 6 months I was working. The whole family was happier as when I was at home I no longer felt trapped. Now I am walking around watching other mums drop of kids and go to work and I have nothing to do except worry about paying the mortgage with one wage. The depression is back with a vengeance and I have no idea what to do.

Bumping for you.

Thinking of you MuchLessTiredNow. Have had to give up work through depression because too stressful and had spent last two years hating it. Have suffered double bereavement of my parents in the last year. Dd is growing up (13). Am trying to keep occupied but it is very isolating when everyone else is at work. Could you volunteer for something when you feel a bit better? Am going to try that and get my fitness back. Have felt rough for 3 months but it is getting a little better. 3 weeks isn't very long to adjust to your situation - in time I find your mind gets a bit more used to it. Bumping for you.

I can't volunteer for anything as I cannot afford child care unless I work. I feel rubbish at being a SAHM and was a lot better with the children when I was working, as I only worked mornings, so in the afternoons I was desperate to see them and we all got on a lot better. And of course, the longer I am at home, the more patience I lose.