I had pnd with my first child, now at 10mths since the birth I come up as moderately depressed each time I do that questionnaire with the doctor, but not enough to require ads (am a bit relieved about that, though a stint with them years ago did help.)
Anyway a few weeks ago I went to the docs as I am fed up of living in the secrecy of having an ED.. doc ok and pointed me to the counsellor, and have also started attending BEAT support group, but I feel so lousy at the moment. I have taken a big step to find some support yet I feel lousy thinking about how this might effect my baby. It doesn't help that he has a mega cold at the moment either.
Today consisted of not very much I think I am doing the minimum to get us through the day, eg we did go for a walk, am feeding him (from jars) feel very guilty about this, but fed up of making things and him deciding he's not interested. I am mad at myself though I am having a good day on the food front, I feel so and am having a few spells of just crying for no reason
Thanks for listening.