WEEPY MESS

[wildwind]

Hello all mums out there. Hope you all get through whatever hits you.

Any suggestions?

Had difficult time (two previous m/c, then high risk clot at week 29) but now HAPPY HAPPY MUM of perfect baby boy.

Cannot stop thinking about what if something happened to my boy, what if he asks why bad things happen in the world, what if someone drops him accidentally, what if there's a car crash, what if,... Cannot stand being away from him, but wise enough to know to do so. Starting to cry just thinking how lucky we are we have him. Am weepy mess, not sleeping...

Trying to get out, socialise, but no family support or close friends with kids that age).

Old issues seem to creep up (abusive childhood, alcoholic mother). Want to be perfect mum, cleaner, housekeeper, etc. Accordingly, running between baby, washing, dishes... Hubby good dad, but questionable at housework - and low standards. So I am totally exhausted.

Now fighting with husband, resenting financial dependence, loneliness, etc.

Thank you! Good to know there's people out there knowing how bizarre it is.

i still worry things will happen.. its called being a parent.. its so normal to feel this way. you just have to try and rationalise it. why dont you go to a local mums and tots group to make some new friends. just getting out and speaking to people with young children will help you and dont try to be everything perfect. its not possible enjoy your baby ..