please help me - i'm feeling worse not better...........

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I've been on ad's for dd was born 2.6 years ago but the cloud and the worries are just not lifting.
I've been seeing a psychiatrist who put me on lithium on top of the ad's. He's increased the dose twice now and i'm starting to feel worse. I don't know why.........
I wrote down questions for him for last time as i couldn't say them out loud and now i just feel like i've made a fool of myself
plus he seems so lovely i can't stop thinking about him which i know is stupid - he's married, i'm married and he's my psychiatrist. so i feel even more stupid and guilty as my dh is lovely (though he's not very perceptive and sooooooo laid back ) and i only feel like this about doc as he's trying so hard to help me

please help me

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thanks shitemum (only i'm sure you are lovely)

i must be a complete freak then [sad}

You need time to get well. You must get some advice about the meds you're on if you're starting to feel worse. Can someone ring the psychiatrist or your GP for you asap?

Take care and don't take your feelings for consultant seriously, your brain chemistry is doing a tapdance at the moment!

Look after yourself x

It is very common to have feelings for a psychiatrist, counsellor as you share your innermost thoughts with them.

I always write down what I want to say to a counsellor or doctor, imo that is a strength not a weakness,

I have never been on lithium but know it can have strong side effects so imagine that is what you are going through.

I have had an awful day on my A/D as I tok a break for a few days the other week and am now paying for it, so you have my sympathies. Take care

thanks - i 'm sorry i sounded so off yesterday

i'm not even sure i'm ill - maybe i'm just making it up and wasting everyones time

i don't know what i'm feeling or thinking or doing and i don't know why .

Agree with tsap - it's very normal to have these feelings - called "transference" - as you see this professional who seems caring and to understand what you are going through (due to their training of course). Sorry you are still feeling bad. Hope next time you see him you can sort something out - whether it's changing the drugs, doing some counselling or seeing a psychologist that helps you feel better

chaos - i've tried cbt - i found it did little for me, all these meds i've tried haven't completely worked so maybe everyone feels like this and i'm fussing over nothing and should just put up and shut up

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I'm on ads and something similar to lithium, and if they give you too much of it it can make you feel worse - do you have blood tests to make sure they get the dose right? maybe contact the psychiatrist and ask about that. Otherwise, it might be that the combination just isn't working for you. I've lost track of the number of ads I've tried until I found something that worked, must be more than 10 at least... it's hard, but keep asking lots of questions and remember that you dont have to feel like this. it's hard when the depression filter is on, becuse everything seems so tough, but things will get better for you x

thanks caz - it's hard to say i'm no better they seem to be trying so hard to help me but nothing seems to - i'm afraid they'll just give up out of sheer frustration

i do have regular blood test - last one was wednesday and i have an appointment on the 8th to reviiew things. it makes me scared as he said there were normally 5 treatment options

1. Talking - tried it did n't help much
2. AD - tried loads haven't worked
3. Combination of AD - done it, didn't work
4. Lithium therapy - doing it doesn't seem to be working
5. ECT - all i can saay is no waaaaay it seems terrifying

So what's left for me???

ps caz - do you mind me asking what you take thaat's similar to lithium??