I am thinking of going to my doctor tommorrow to ask for some AD's. I have not felt very happy for a while - basically living day to day, getting by, feeling tearful some days.
I lost my Dad suddenly last Christmas and I thought I was coping well - I did cry and grieve at the time but having 3 DC's under 8, you are so busy ( I thought at the time that that helped really.)
But my self esteem is so low - i find it hard to talk to mums i have known for a while - i just feel tongue tied and don;t know what to say. I didn't really talk to many friends when i lost my dad and feel a bit distant from them... I am quite a shy person and I worry about the social development of my DC's and how they relate to their peers. They are all quite reserved.
I feel like a bit of a rubbish mum who just doesn't feel 'with it' or on top of anything. Someone thats looking in on everything but not being part of it (i don;t know if that makes sense??)
DH is busy and v stressed with his work and our financial situation so i def wouldn't want to tell him that i was going to have AD's, I don;t want to tell anyone in RL. I just want to try them and see if they make me feel back to normal ?