I have a dd who is 2 and a ds who is 4. I work three days a week and my default mood is grumpy. I always have something else I should be doing - clearing up the kitchen, washing etc. and when I do try and spend time with my kids even if it's watching telly with them because I'm so knackered I can't be arsed to do anything else, they just climb on me and fight over who's going to sit on my lap until I have a tantrum and get up and leave. I hate the way I talk to them. They drive me nuts, my ds especially, just grizzles about just about everything and I just can't be bothered with his crying. I just want to tell him to shut up, which makes me feel horrible. how do I get out of this? does anyone have any experience of coaching or counselling specifically about parenthood. I am so very sad.