Today I have wasted an entire day sat at the PC. Why? because I have sod all else to do.
My life really is pointless at the moment. I have no money so can't go anywhere or do anything. Every job interview I go to I mess up, half the time I can't even get to the job interview stage and now it seems there are no jobs to even APPLY for anymore.
I'm the only young person in my family to be in this state.
Earlier on a comparison was made between me and another family member, we'll call her Alison.
Now I want to start off by saying I DO NOT MEAN ANY OFFENSE TO ANY PARENTS OF SN CHILDREN....
But Alison has special needs. Today someone said "you and Alison are in a similar situation really..." and I thought about it and realised its true.
We're both living on a sink estate, single parents, no employment, no friends, no money, seemingly no future...at least she has a bloody excuse for finding things difficult!
I feel so shit at the moment. Nobody else in my family is like this. Everyone else works, everyone else either owns a house or rents privately in a nice area, everyone else has at least a bit of money, everyone else goes out now and again...
I've been sat here all day wondering what the point is. Why do I even bother getting up? if it wasn't for needing to get the kids to school, I'm not sure I would.
Oh and the kids have a dentist appointment for tomorow. The dentist phoned earlier and said he needed to move it to 8.30am...:
"But, if that's too early, I can re-book for another day..."
me - "no no!! that's fine, 8:30am is fine..."
why? because its something to do and I was kind of looking foward to it. How bleeding sad is that?