Hello,
I wondered if anyone else had had similar experience with very vivid dreams and continuations into waking and how they dealt with them?
I'd be rambling on forever if I described it completely but here's a couple of examples:
A few weeks ago I got up to my son in the middle of the night, his crying woke me from a very vivid dream and as I was feeding my son in his room I kept on thinking the man who was in my dream was out in the corridor waiting for me.
I knew at the time it was irrational but the more I thought about it the more I was scared that my imagination was working so hard that I'd imagine him into existence. He didn't appear in the end but I needed a big cuddle from DP.
Then only this morning DP let me have a lie-in, I was awake while he was giving DS breakfast but they went out for a walk and I eventually dozed off. I had a really weird dream and when I woke up it was like I couldn't snap out of it. I couldn't really move or speak and I kept on seeing and hearing things, but I was awake. It was really scary. I saw my son's pram above my head being thrown down at me (by DP, if I'd been able to talk I would have screamed at him). Then I kept on hearing DS babbling and crawling around outside the room but he wasn't there.
Then finally I could see a video monitor on the wall next to my bed with my DS crying on it.
What was worse was I kept on thinking I'd woken up, turned on the light and snapped out of it, only to find that I'd dreamed that too.
Alongside this I've been really strangely anxious, not all the time, but for example Dp went out cycling today and after about an hour and a half I couldn't stop thinking that he'd hurt himself, my heart was racing, I felt sick, and I broke down in tears when I saw him.
Also we were talking about the financial crisis on Friday and I cried inconsolably for half an hour (we have no savings, mortgage etc. so nothing to worry about really, so was quite irrational).
I'm sorry this is so long but I've never felt like this before.
I've always had vivid dreams (except when so sleep deprived by DS that I was getting too little sleep to get REM). I've also suffered from depression before, but never this anxiety where my heart goes so fast and I feel sick with worry.
I'm so scared the vivid dreams will turn into waking hallucinations. I'm a logically minded person but I don't seem to be able to snap myself out of it.
Any experiences, words of advice welcome!!
Thanks.